my testimony

If you read My Story then you're in the right place. This is the story about how I found Christ... or how He found me...

I felt like I was living a dream falling in love and being with Jim. We were only together for a few short months before we found out I was pregnant with Raelyn. I've always wanted a girl too so you can imagine my excitement when we found out. After Raelyn was about a year old, I started hanging out with a girl from high school that was into witchcraft, tarot, and claimed to be a psychic. medium. Now, in my twenties, I used to dabble with tarot cards and wicca so after finding out she had similar interests, well, I started dabbling again. I was also at a very dark place in struggling with post partum depression on top of my already panic/anxiety & depression disorder so it just got worse from there. Then came my third child and second daughter. It was probably the worst post partum I've ever had. I've had it with all three of my children. Fast forward to about July 2024, I slowly started not wanting to deal with that stuff anymore. I don't know why, I just didn't. Perhaps it was my Mom praying over me for so many years. All I know is I don't think I was looking for Christ when this happened... I woke  up one day with this burning desire to burn everything evil in my home and being a more wholesome person. I only wore black heavy metal hand tshirts and other gothic attire. I only listened to heavy metal music and watched horror movies, particularly possession movies. Everything in my home had a pentacle somewhere, books about witchcraft, crystals, numerology, astrology, and demonology. I had several tarot card decks and used them to tell people's fortunes for money.

I wanted to be a better person. I threw away everything occultish or evil including all my band tshirts, horror movies (even just rated R movies with violence), anything metaphysical or new age, even decided to donate my entire wardrobe of my black clothing because I decided to wear nothing but colorful floraly stuff. After starting to read the Bible and study with my Mother who is now an Ex- JW. Now, I have been so dedicated to studying The Word of God that I did it from AM to PM and almost forgot I had children haha I have learned so much on my journey. I still can't explain what happened in a day but I thank the Lord Almighty every single day for opening my eyes and my heart because I am truly a changed person. I was spiritually dead and now I'm alive, truly alive. I finally feel like I have purpose. I mean, i am still human so I still feel negative emotions & sin but I just give it to God, pray, repent, and he still loves me.
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What does it mean to be Spiritually dead?
The Apostle Paul wrote, "As for you, you were dead in your transgressions and sins, in which you used to live when you followed the ways of this world and of the ruler of the kingdom of the air, the spirit who is now at work in those who are disobedient." - Ephesians 2:1-2